Erincita

Ravenous
Wednesday, May 17, 2006

I am so hungry!!! And it's not hormonal. When I'm hormonal I get cravings, but it has nothing to do with hunger. This is really wierd, because I work out every day, but yesterday I hardly ate anything and today I'm just eating everything I can find, which isn't much since I'm stuck at my desk--lunchtime is in 10 minutes. All I brought was a dinky salad. It actually a very good salad--romaine, goat cheese, cranberries and raspberry vinagrette--but that doesn't make it filling.

Okay, I just had my lunch and I feel better. I was probably just going carb-crazy. I was compensating with coffee and now I can't focus or write well.

. . . So I waited a day to write again. I have arrived again at work with a new salad creation. It's my attempt at an oriental salad. Romaine, asian sesame dressing, mandarin oranges, sesame seeds and sliced teriyaki pork (leftovers from dinner last night). Work hasn't started yet and the day already seems very long. I left the house to work out like always and when I got home everyone had left. I don't often have the house all to myself. I did the usual: took a shower, made my lunch, read my mail, tidied up my room. With no distractions I got everything done super quick and sat on my bed staring at the wall, wondering why I still had two hours left before I had to leave. I made a little fruit salad with bananas and strawberries and read a book that isn't really worth reading but it's something to do (these kind of books are perfect when work slows down because you don't get so into the plot that you forget your focus is on work). Come to think of it, I could have easily run a few errands and gone to the library, but I didn't go much furthur than thinking about it. I'm very attached to my pre-work routine and my whole day feels disrupted when something unplanned happens. Yesterday I drove to the Eastside to meet Carol at a Starbucks to talk about this'n'that. Lovely as always, but too brief for my taste.

4/28 I'm in a funk. I think I need a vacation. Maybe it's the weather, it's been gorgeous lately. Maybe I'm still getting used to the late shift. I'm just not enjoying work lately.

5/17 Okay I'm back after a long hiatus. I got some happy birthday wishes in my comments and that has inspired me to write. I'll start from where I left off. The funk I was in wore off and I'm enjoying work again. I'm doing very well, actually, with my performance near the top of the team. That's probably one of the reasons I'm feeling better. The funk did not wear off before I used it as my motivation to schedule my vacation. I have to take 7 days off in a row or lose my vacation so of course I decided to go to California to see the 'rents and relatives. I chose an early morning flight to LAX and because it's on the way, we've decided to see my uncles and grandfather on my dad's side on the way home. This is an absolutely horrible idea, considering I'll have 4 hours of sleep if I'm lucky. I'm going to be there for 9 days! Isn't it worth a little extra gas to see them when I'm fresh and happy? I'll even pay for it if need be.

That's it for my little rant. I had a very nice birthday. Dana took me out for brunch and gave me a bento box, kind of like a big thermos with 5 compartments. A very thougtful gift considering I take my lunch to work all the time. I can't imagine buying my lunch every day like some people do. I don't have time, for one thing. I asked early on for my lunch to be 1/2 hour just to shorten my shift a little bit. I'd probably be broke if I bought my lunch. A few people at work bothered to get me little gifts too. I got a T-shirt, a candle, and a bottle of Smartwater, which I like just because the bottle is so cool. Supposedly it's fortified with electrolytes. My actual birthday was Sunday, my day off, so Kate made me a fabulous birthday dinner and straweberry shortcake for dessert. Alissa didn't make it but Heather was there. For myself, I bought a pair of jeans that Dad wouldn't like. Low rise. So there.

The weather has been gorgeous. We actually broke some records for May and today may have been the last day of a so-called heat wave (which came to 85 degrees here in Seattle). It's way too early for that kind of sun but now I'm going to be so sad when it goes away! Last weekend I drove to La Conner to enjoy the sun. I hadn't intended on going by myself, but I had made plans weeks earlier to just get out of town for a day, you know, to cure my funkness. I went to La Conner and didn't even get out of the car. I wasn't impressed and went on home. I enjoyed the drive though. Very pretty. The Sunday I had planned on going was actually interrupted when Heather asked me to join her at the local Bowling Alley where they were having a kareoke championship thingy. It was the perfect thing to take my mind off of work for a day. And she did so well! She was two points away from going to California for the finals. And guess where the finals were? On Brookhurst, less than a mile from my parent's house. She could have come to visit! It would have been awesome! And she deserved to win too, it was a real letdown when she didn't.

So I've been doing well with my workouts lately, but I did not go today because I slept so badly. Towards the end of work last night I started getting a headache that progressed into a migraine by the middle of the night. It was so bad it woke me up from horrible dreams. I was dreaming that I was at work and couldn't figure out this problem that a customer was having and each call was for the same problem and I remember feeling really pissed off because I knew I wasn't getting paid for it, because I in my subconscious I knew I was only dreaming. Hopefully that won't repeat itself. It's the third migraine I've ever had and it's given me a whole new outlook on people who suffer from chronic migraines. It's horrible. Debilitating. This is a wierd place to stop, but I'm out of ideas and it's been too long between posts. Laters everybody.

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