Tuesday, Mach 27th, 2012
Miss you dearly, wish I could see you hug you just one more time. Thanks for giving me a privilage to be your mom. Your memories are my ladder to reach to you. Love you sweet heart. Happy Birthday!
Happy 18th Birthday my sweet heart
Miss you dearly, wish I could see you hug you just one more time. Thanks for giving me a privilage to be your mom. Your memories are my ladder to reach to you. Love you sweet heart. Happy Birthday!
Wednesday, January 4th, 2012
New year is a time of celebrations, praying for bright and healthy year ahead. Every year, New year gives me chills, as it reminds me that I had spend another year without my handsome son. I wasn't thinking of living without him for 7 seconds, 7 minutes, 7 hours, 7 days or 7 months but now I spend 7 years without him. Seems so unfair. When I gave him birth never thought I will see his last day, but it is so unfortunate that not only I saw a day but have been living without him since then. Things are same as you left them, we laugh, we smile, we enjoy life too but we miss you every moment of our life.
I thought of you with love today but that is nothing new
I thought about you yesterday and days before that too,
I think of you in silence I often speak your name
All I have are memories and your picture in a frame
Your memory is my keepsake with which I'll never part
God has you in His keeping I have you in my heart.
I can't say come back as I know it is not going to happen but please come in my dreams I want to see you talk to you, hug you and kiss you. Love you my sweety pie. I miss you, longing to meet you.
Four Years Ago
Friday, Dec 19, 2008
Four years ago, I had no idea that I was hearing Binny's voice for the last time. Four years ago, I had no idea that I was about to spend some of the most difficult hours/days of my life.
It's hard to think about the next few days and weeks - so many dates that have meaning - so many dates that I don't want to remember, but can't forget - Dec 19, 2003- the day I learned Binny has Leukemia. Dec 25th,04 celebrating last Christmas with him in hospital. Dec 31st the day Doctors told me to get used of living without him. Jan 4th, 2005 the day, I watched him taking his last breath.
I can honestly say that this has been the longest 4 years of my life. Many times we have wanted to share something with Binny during these past 4 years - many special moments that he would have loved ... memories we are making without him and it makes me sad. My heart hurts with a dull ache - a throbbing reminder that he is gone.
Binny, I miss you with every breath I take.
Happy 14th Birthday
Are there birthdays in Heaven?
Does the angel blow his horn?
Announcing to everybody
That this is the day you were born?
Birthdays meant so much to you
They were always a big deal
Birthday presents, lots of friends
And perhaps a special meal.
So I'll whisper a little prayer today
Asking everyone up above
To sing you a Happy Birthday song
And give you all my love.
~ Author unknown~
The hardest times for a parent who has lost a child is to have to go through one more holiday or birthday without that child in their life. This year Binny would have been 14 years old, and I wanted to celebrate his life as I always did, with joy in my heart. Binny always wanted to have Birthday eve just like Christmas Eve, So this year we got 14 balloons and released on his birthday Eve. It was very meaningful for all of us, and it helped ease the pain of the day.
Happy Birthday Sweet heart. We miss you. Big hug from mom, dad and little brother, who is going to make a cake tomorrow and cut for you. I wish if I could see you and hug you one more time and see you how tall you are. Dad thinks that you would have been taller then him. I think you would have been a handsome boy with your hazel blue eyes.
Happy Birthday to you !!!
Its been 3 Years now since you left us. It still feels like he was here yesterday. People always say it gets easier as time goes by but thats not true. As time goes by the pain becomes more intense. Theres not a moment that I am not thinking about him. He is always on my mind. When you lose a child to cancer, you put all memories into 3 categories: Before he got sick, while he was sick and after he left us. That is how life is now.
We miss you sweety pie. As your brother said yesterday "Life is not fair mama without him." Love you sweety pie.We hug our precious memories of you close to our hearts in the hope that one day we will all be together again - when we all can cuddle you once again.
An angel wrote down in the book of life your birth and as she closed the book whispered "Too beautiful for earth"
Author --Unknown Sent By: Gayathri Aunty
Birthdays are a time for celebration
Not a time for tears
But what happens when the birthdays
No longer mark the years
Happy 13th Birthday to my Sweetheart! I hope you know how much we miss you each and every day. I feel your arms arounds me. I hope you feel mine too. I kept wondering whole night, How a 13 year old Binny looks like? It's so unfortunate, when u have to think, How your dear one looks like? Lots of wishes from your brother, he is going to bake a cake for you. He said," As Binny is not here so I will cut the cake for him."
Love you sweety pie, Happy 13th Birthday
!!!!
2 years now I can't believe it. It doesn't feel any different. we are just as sad now as we were2 years ago. We miss him so much. We are two year further away from the last time we saw Binny's face, but also a year closer to when we will see him again. May we all be ready for that day. We thank God that He helps us continue on. It isn't easy, living without him. Even remembering happy times, there is sorrow mixed in because he is not here with us. Still I often cry myself to sleep at night, remembering binny, wishing he was still here and healthy. I have added few new pictures and stuff in update page. Please check it out.
If only for a moment,
I want to hold you tight,
I want to see your pretty face,
Treasure your very sight!
If only for a moment,
I wish to see you play,
Smile, laugh and run,
On a beautiful Spring day.
Our heroic son Gurdeep Bedi slipped out of our arms and into the loving arms of God on Tuesday, January 4, 2005 at 8:20 pm. Gurdeep was at total peace and surrounded by mom and dad. His example of grace, dignity and the wisdom with which he conducted himself will forever be an example to us all. We miss him every second of every day.. We live on through his strength, he taught us and many others so much... He remained positive even though he endured so much suffering...
Soar high Gurdeep we love you.... always...
Thanks for the prayers. Thanks for your support all along in past one year. We just had a beautiful gift from GOD and he just snached form us so soon. Don't understand GOD's will but can't do anything..He is just pain free and happy in GOD's lap
The sky is dark the stars are bright
I love you my child day and night.
There is a star that shines so bright
I know it's you the shinning light.
I Love you strong with all my might
I Love you my child day and night.
You're in God's hands he holds you tight
with his love that shines so bright.
Welcome to Gurdeep's Web Page. It has been provided to keep people updated about Gurdeep's battle with Leukemia (AML).
Gurdeep was diagnosed with Acute Myelogenous Leukemia on Dec. 19, 2003. All along he was a healthy boy. He got lymph Node infection in Nov 2003 from which he recovered with a few doses of antibiotics. However he again fell sick with mild to heavy fever and sore throat. The Doctor decided to test his blood for Mono (viral) infection and then we got the unbelieveable news that he has Leukemia. Our family was devastated with the diagnosis. We still can't believe our son has been diagnosed with Leukemia. We always prayed for nothing else but healthy life for our family. It seems like this is some mistake, this can't be true. It hurts when our son says "Mom when I go to heaven I will ask GOD why he choose me for Leukemia?". We don't have any answer, except tears in our eyes. We hope nobody goes through having to see everyday their child laying on bed with tubes going inside his body. Doctors started his chemo-therapy right away and now with GOD's grace he is in remission. He will have to go for 5 rounds of chemo, each round takes 4-5 weeks of hospital stay with a one week break in between rounds.
Gurdeep's brother was tested for bone marrow match, but unfortunately he is not a match and we didn't find a match in world bank either. Now we are in a need for a donor with matching bone marrow, most likely it'll be somebody from south Asia. Please help us in increasing Gurdeep's chances with his battle against leukemia and so many others like him whom you can give, the gift of life. We all can give this gift, the most precious gift, with just a few spoons of blood.
Registration:
Everyone who is between 18-60 in good general health may register by giving a sample of blood (two tea spoonful) for analysis.
The professional people from Blood Center will take a sample of your blood, just like a regular blood test and perform test for HLA typing of your blood. The result will get recorded in to the National Marrow Donor (NMD) Registry computer.
Thank you very much from the bottom of our heart. -- Kawarjit & Mona Bedi
SEVEN YEARS!
New year is a time of celebrations, praying for bright and healthy year ahead. Every year, New year gives me chills, as it reminds me that I had spend another year without my handsome son. I wasn't thinking of living without him for 7 seconds, 7 minutes, 7 hours, 7 days or 7 months but now I spend 7 years without him. Seems so unfair. When I gave him birth never thought I will see his last day, but it is so unfortunate that not only I saw a day but have been living without him since then. Things are same as you left them, we laugh, we smile, we enjoy life too but we miss you every moment of our life.
I thought of you with love today but that is nothing new
I thought about you yesterday and days before that too,
I think of you in silence I often speak your name
All I have are memories and your picture in a frame
Your memory is my keepsake with which I'll never part
God has you in His keeping I have you in my heart.
I can't say come back as I know it is not going to happen but please come in my dreams I want to see you talk to you, hug you and kiss you. Love you my sweety pie. I miss you, longing to meet you.
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Today we are going for snow tubbing with everybody, missing you sweetheart because that place is your favorite place to spend time in winter.I wish I could take you too. Aman gave presents to dad and me from you on christmas. He is missing you alot. Yesterday when I was sitting in your room, for a minute I felt you are sitting beside me. Sweetheart I really want to see you one more time. Please come in my dream and just stay there till the morning so I can talk to you. Love you. It's going to be 6 years in few days since you left us. These days are very tough as it reminds me of your days in ICU, your tougtest battle! You were very brave and still smiled during that time. I don't know how you did that. Whenever I am in pain I always think of you and that gives me streanth. Love you sweetheart. Missing you today a lot. Come back my handsome boy.
Missing you !!
Today we are going for snow tubbing with everybody, missing you sweetheart because that place is your favorite place to spend time in winter.I wish I could take you too. Aman gave presents to dad and me from you on christmas. He is missing you alot. Yesterday when I was sitting in your room, for a minute I felt you are sitting beside me. Sweetheart I really want to see you one more time. Please come in my dream and just stay there till the morning so I can talk to you. Love you. It's going to be 6 years in few days since you left us. These days are very tough as it reminds me of your days in ICU, your tougtest battle! You were very brave and still smiled during that time. I don't know how you did that. Whenever I am in pain I always think of you and that gives me streanth. Love you sweetheart. Missing you today a lot. Come back my handsome boy.
Sunday, March 27, 2010
Happy Birthday to you!! Happy Birthday to you!! Happy 16th birthday dear Binny. May you have?????? I was talking to a 16 year old other day just to imagine How would Binny talk and act at this grown-up age. But somehow I could not imagine, it seems like my imagination can't go beyond his 11th year. Biggest topic of the day would be, which car I am going to get? Binny wanted to get his dad's Taurus as his first car, and then a Harley's bike. At that time I was petrified with a thought of Binny riding a bike and today I want to see him riding a bike. Binny always liked to celebrate his Birthday eve. His statement was, if we can celebrate Christmas Eve., why not birthday eve and since then always before his birthday we had a birthday eve but today when I woke up nobody asked me "so what are you giving me today?, what are the plans?" He probably would go and ask dad for all his gifts, as he knows dad will never say No to anything. I don't even know what is his birthday wish. May Angels celebrate your birthday sweetheart with 16 candles,16 balloons,lots of gifts and your favorite fruit cake. I wish I could see you today, really longing to see you my sweetheat. Happy Birthday to you from dad and Aman. They miss you alot.
Happy Birthday to you !! Happy 16th Birthday to you !!
Happy Birthday to you!! Happy Birthday to you!! Happy 16th birthday dear Binny. May you have?????? I was talking to a 16 year old other day just to imagine How would Binny talk and act at this grown-up age. But somehow I could not imagine, it seems like my imagination can't go beyond his 11th year. Biggest topic of the day would be, which car I am going to get? Binny wanted to get his dad's Taurus as his first car, and then a Harley's bike. At that time I was petrified with a thought of Binny riding a bike and today I want to see him riding a bike. Binny always liked to celebrate his Birthday eve. His statement was, if we can celebrate Christmas Eve., why not birthday eve and since then always before his birthday we had a birthday eve but today when I woke up nobody asked me "so what are you giving me today?, what are the plans?" He probably would go and ask dad for all his gifts, as he knows dad will never say No to anything. I don't even know what is his birthday wish. May Angels celebrate your birthday sweetheart with 16 candles,16 balloons,lots of gifts and your favorite fruit cake. I wish I could see you today, really longing to see you my sweetheat. Happy Birthday to you from dad and Aman. They miss you alot.
Tuesday, Dec 29, 2009
January, 4th will mark 5 year since the dreadful day of Binny's passing. Sometimes it feels like it's been an eternity since I held my baby (now must be tall handsome teenager) in my arms and at times it seems like the nightmare happened just a few days ago. Again, I can't even begin to describe the pain and emptiness that we feel day in and day out. I have to say that I'm at a bit of a loss for words tonight. We wish so much that we could turn back the clock, but we know that isn't realistic. The lesson I have learned from Binny is that I can overcome any obstacle and to always fight for the best things in life.
A child who loses his parents is called an orphan. But...there is no word for a parent who loses a child, that's how awful the loss is!
Today I feel like sharing Binny's favorite hindi song which he always liked and enjoyed listening and humming with it. Now whenever I listened to it , I just get numbed at the wordings and think about why he liked that song?? He knew something…...
January, 4th will mark 5 year since the dreadful day of Binny's passing. Sometimes it feels like it's been an eternity since I held my baby (now must be tall handsome teenager) in my arms and at times it seems like the nightmare happened just a few days ago. Again, I can't even begin to describe the pain and emptiness that we feel day in and day out. I have to say that I'm at a bit of a loss for words tonight. We wish so much that we could turn back the clock, but we know that isn't realistic. The lesson I have learned from Binny is that I can overcome any obstacle and to always fight for the best things in life.
A child who loses his parents is called an orphan. But...there is no word for a parent who loses a child, that's how awful the loss is!
Today I feel like sharing Binny's favorite hindi song which he always liked and enjoyed listening and humming with it. Now whenever I listened to it , I just get numbed at the wordings and think about why he liked that song?? He knew something…...
Hoho...
Sandese aate hain. Humein tadpaate hain.
To chitthi aati hai. To poochh jaati hai.
Ke ghar kab aaoge. Ke ghar kab aaoge.
Likho kab aaoge.
Ki tum bin ye ghar soona soona hai.
Another favorite song which his dad use to sing to him and he enjoyed that a lot. I don't know why he always like these songs….
.
Sandese aate hain. Humein tadpaate hain.
To chitthi aati hai. To poochh jaati hai.
Ke ghar kab aaoge. Ke ghar kab aaoge.
Likho kab aaoge.
Ki tum bin ye ghar soona soona hai.
Another favorite song which his dad use to sing to him and he enjoyed that a lot. I don't know why he always like these songs….
.
"chal akelaa, chal akelaa, chal akelaa.
teraa melaa peechhe chhootaa raahee chal akelaa".
teraa melaa peechhe chhootaa raahee chal akelaa".
Happy 15th Birthday Sweetheart !!
Today is your birthday
without candles and cake.
And since you are not with us,
we will not celebrate.
We cannot send you a birthday card,
your hands we cannot touch.
So we ask God to give a message
to the one we love so much.
And grant us one wish
and make it come true.
To have His choir of Angels sing
Happy Birthday to you.
Few minutes back Aman asked us "People are you forgetting to bake a cake, tomorrow is somebody who is so very special to me was born." So we will be making a cake for our handsome 15 year old. But here is something very special,I want to share, a beautiful poem was written by Shomita for Jan 4th.
Thank you shomita you touched my heart and soul.
Today is the date you detest the most
And it comes back every year to haunt like a ghost
An eternal void has left your soul evermore sore
His sea green eyes now shut , you can look into no more
Always in your mind, rests a picture of his face
That not a date in the calendar can ever efface
His golden brown curls and his handsome smile
That could make girls fall from a distant mile
To watch him blossom you did not get the chance to see
From a child to the endearing man he would turn out to be
Now with this constant ache your life you deal
I will never quite understand, how it is you feel
I am not in your shoes , but I am your friend
And I did love him too till the very end
Some queries have no answers but yet we ask
Why does HE take his children to task??
Sometimes that HE does, why does HE do??
Why did HE summon this inopportune adieu??
HE is our master and HE alone knows
HE tests us with some hard and bitter blows
HE throws us into the burning pyre
To test our endurance through the consuming fire
Keep this wound always burning in your heart
This flame will keep him alive though he is now apart
He will see the world through the light in your eyes
In person he is no more , but his timeless spirit never dies
On his death anniversary today , recall him with great affection
Reminisce every moment together, bring them all into reflection
Smile , for would he want to see your eyes filled with tears??
Would you ever want that for him my dear??
Be rest assured no one can harm him , coz he is in the safest place
Transformed into a real star , he abides in LORD'S warm embrace !!
- shomita
Today is your birthday
without candles and cake.
And since you are not with us,
we will not celebrate.
We cannot send you a birthday card,
your hands we cannot touch.
So we ask God to give a message
to the one we love so much.
And grant us one wish
and make it come true.
To have His choir of Angels sing
Happy Birthday to you.
Few minutes back Aman asked us "People are you forgetting to bake a cake, tomorrow is somebody who is so very special to me was born." So we will be making a cake for our handsome 15 year old. But here is something very special,I want to share, a beautiful poem was written by Shomita for Jan 4th.
Thank you shomita you touched my heart and soul.
Today is the date you detest the most
And it comes back every year to haunt like a ghost
An eternal void has left your soul evermore sore
His sea green eyes now shut , you can look into no more
Always in your mind, rests a picture of his face
That not a date in the calendar can ever efface
His golden brown curls and his handsome smile
That could make girls fall from a distant mile
To watch him blossom you did not get the chance to see
From a child to the endearing man he would turn out to be
Now with this constant ache your life you deal
I will never quite understand, how it is you feel
I am not in your shoes , but I am your friend
And I did love him too till the very end
Some queries have no answers but yet we ask
Why does HE take his children to task??
Sometimes that HE does, why does HE do??
Why did HE summon this inopportune adieu??
HE is our master and HE alone knows
HE tests us with some hard and bitter blows
HE throws us into the burning pyre
To test our endurance through the consuming fire
Keep this wound always burning in your heart
This flame will keep him alive though he is now apart
He will see the world through the light in your eyes
In person he is no more , but his timeless spirit never dies
On his death anniversary today , recall him with great affection
Reminisce every moment together, bring them all into reflection
Smile , for would he want to see your eyes filled with tears??
Would you ever want that for him my dear??
Be rest assured no one can harm him , coz he is in the safest place
Transformed into a real star , he abides in LORD'S warm embrace !!
- shomita
Four Years Ago
Friday, Dec 19, 2008
Four years ago, I had no idea that I was hearing Binny's voice for the last time. Four years ago, I had no idea that I was about to spend some of the most difficult hours/days of my life.
It's hard to think about the next few days and weeks - so many dates that have meaning - so many dates that I don't want to remember, but can't forget - Dec 19, 2003- the day I learned Binny has Leukemia. Dec 25th,04 celebrating last Christmas with him in hospital. Dec 31st the day Doctors told me to get used of living without him. Jan 4th, 2005 the day, I watched him taking his last breath.
I can honestly say that this has been the longest 4 years of my life. Many times we have wanted to share something with Binny during these past 4 years - many special moments that he would have loved ... memories we are making without him and it makes me sad. My heart hurts with a dull ache - a throbbing reminder that he is gone.
Binny, I miss you with every breath I take.
Happy 14th Birthday
Are there birthdays in Heaven?
Does the angel blow his horn?
Announcing to everybody
That this is the day you were born?
Birthdays meant so much to you
They were always a big deal
Birthday presents, lots of friends
And perhaps a special meal.
So I'll whisper a little prayer today
Asking everyone up above
To sing you a Happy Birthday song
And give you all my love.
~ Author unknown~
The hardest times for a parent who has lost a child is to have to go through one more holiday or birthday without that child in their life. This year Binny would have been 14 years old, and I wanted to celebrate his life as I always did, with joy in my heart. Binny always wanted to have Birthday eve just like Christmas Eve, So this year we got 14 balloons and released on his birthday Eve. It was very meaningful for all of us, and it helped ease the pain of the day.
Happy Birthday Sweet heart. We miss you. Big hug from mom, dad and little brother, who is going to make a cake tomorrow and cut for you. I wish if I could see you and hug you one more time and see you how tall you are. Dad thinks that you would have been taller then him. I think you would have been a handsome boy with your hazel blue eyes.
Happy Birthday to you !!!
Its been 3 Years now since you left us. It still feels like he was here yesterday. People always say it gets easier as time goes by but thats not true. As time goes by the pain becomes more intense. Theres not a moment that I am not thinking about him. He is always on my mind. When you lose a child to cancer, you put all memories into 3 categories: Before he got sick, while he was sick and after he left us. That is how life is now.
We miss you sweety pie. As your brother said yesterday "Life is not fair mama without him." Love you sweety pie.We hug our precious memories of you close to our hearts in the hope that one day we will all be together again - when we all can cuddle you once again.
An angel wrote down in the book of life your birth and as she closed the book whispered "Too beautiful for earth"
Author --Unknown Sent By: Gayathri Aunty
Birthdays are a time for celebration
Not a time for tears
But what happens when the birthdays
No longer mark the years
Happy 13th Birthday to my Sweetheart! I hope you know how much we miss you each and every day. I feel your arms arounds me. I hope you feel mine too. I kept wondering whole night, How a 13 year old Binny looks like? It's so unfortunate, when u have to think, How your dear one looks like? Lots of wishes from your brother, he is going to bake a cake for you. He said," As Binny is not here so I will cut the cake for him."
2 years now I can't believe it. It doesn't feel any different. we are just as sad now as we were2 years ago. We miss him so much. We are two year further away from the last time we saw Binny's face, but also a year closer to when we will see him again. May we all be ready for that day. We thank God that He helps us continue on. It isn't easy, living without him. Even remembering happy times, there is sorrow mixed in because he is not here with us. Still I often cry myself to sleep at night, remembering binny, wishing he was still here and healthy. I have added few new pictures and stuff in update page. Please check it out.
If only for a moment,
I want to hold you tight,
I want to see your pretty face,
Treasure your very sight!
If only for a moment,
I wish to see you play,
Smile, laugh and run,
On a beautiful Spring day.
Our heroic son Gurdeep Bedi slipped out of our arms and into the loving arms of God on Tuesday, January 4, 2005 at 8:20 pm. Gurdeep was at total peace and surrounded by mom and dad. His example of grace, dignity and the wisdom with which he conducted himself will forever be an example to us all. We miss him every second of every day.. We live on through his strength, he taught us and many others so much... He remained positive even though he endured so much suffering...
Soar high Gurdeep we love you.... always...
Thanks for the prayers. Thanks for your support all along in past one year. We just had a beautiful gift from GOD and he just snached form us so soon. Don't understand GOD's will but can't do anything..He is just pain free and happy in GOD's lap
The sky is dark the stars are bright
I love you my child day and night.
There is a star that shines so bright
I know it's you the shinning light.
I Love you strong with all my might
I Love you my child day and night.
You're in God's hands he holds you tight
with his love that shines so bright.
Welcome to Gurdeep's Web Page. It has been provided to keep people updated about Gurdeep's battle with Leukemia (AML).
Gurdeep was diagnosed with Acute Myelogenous Leukemia on Dec. 19, 2003. All along he was a healthy boy. He got lymph Node infection in Nov 2003 from which he recovered with a few doses of antibiotics. However he again fell sick with mild to heavy fever and sore throat. The Doctor decided to test his blood for Mono (viral) infection and then we got the unbelieveable news that he has Leukemia. Our family was devastated with the diagnosis. We still can't believe our son has been diagnosed with Leukemia. We always prayed for nothing else but healthy life for our family. It seems like this is some mistake, this can't be true. It hurts when our son says "Mom when I go to heaven I will ask GOD why he choose me for Leukemia?". We don't have any answer, except tears in our eyes. We hope nobody goes through having to see everyday their child laying on bed with tubes going inside his body. Doctors started his chemo-therapy right away and now with GOD's grace he is in remission. He will have to go for 5 rounds of chemo, each round takes 4-5 weeks of hospital stay with a one week break in between rounds.
Gurdeep's brother was tested for bone marrow match, but unfortunately he is not a match and we didn't find a match in world bank either. Now we are in a need for a donor with matching bone marrow, most likely it'll be somebody from south Asia. Please help us in increasing Gurdeep's chances with his battle against leukemia and so many others like him whom you can give, the gift of life. We all can give this gift, the most precious gift, with just a few spoons of blood.
Registration:
Everyone who is between 18-60 in good general health may register by giving a sample of blood (two tea spoonful) for analysis.
The professional people from Blood Center will take a sample of your blood, just like a regular blood test and perform test for HLA typing of your blood. The result will get recorded in to the National Marrow Donor (NMD) Registry computer.
Thank you very much from the bottom of our heart. -- Kawarjit & Mona Bedi
E-mail us at kbedi@yahoo.com. We thank you
for your
help!