I'm such a crazy person today! We had heard from our agency a week and a half ago that we'd probably be receiving our acceptance letter within two weeks - and we're running out of those "two weeks" fast! I know nothing is predictable with the CCAA, but I'm very on edge, hoping it comes soon. I know my worry does absolutely nothing to speed anything along. And I know that our agency would call us if they heard anything, so no point in bothering anybody over there. I've been trying very hard to find other things to distract me, but I'm acting, well... distracted! I'm having problems focusing on anything.

I have to admit that I'm very curious as to what goes on in the CCAA office in China, exactly. Bureaucracy can be unpredictable with only one government involved, so with two big governments running the show, well... one can imagine how interesting things may get. Yet, I can imagine one worker in the CCAA office with a big pile of files on his/her desk, each one representing a hope or dream. Each one representing a child and a family, waiting to come together. The Great and Powerful Oz is actually a human, a human with the power to help us bring our daughter home. And I believe that human is probably a very good person, trying the best they can to help my little girl come home - perhaps that person feels a little overwhelmed at times, or needs a break for a nice cup of tea. I wish the journey to Eleanor Zitao were as simple as thinking good thoughts and clicking my heels together. (I'm really not feeling like doing a lot of university work lately, think maybe I can throw water on it and it'll melt away? Or maybe I can try it on my neuroscience professor? "I'm melting... melting..." Never mind. Back to work I go.)