PAJARO PREGNANCY
I have been simulating pregnancy for about 20 years. This desire took hold when a woman wrote to Penthouse magazine & stated that she didn't mind men dressing up as women. The only thing that disturbed her was that the men didn't wear bras when it was 100 degrees out or the didn't go through the tough times a woman went through such as being pregnant. I realized then that if I wanted to portray a woman I would have to portray a complete woman including pregnancy. Since then I have been working to improve the feel & look of the form. I have used iron, lead, & now water as weight. The earlier forms I had to put them on at night & sleep in them so my body could adjust to having them on. The latest form (a 20" beach ball filled with 20 lbs. of water & another one filled with 2 lbs. of water) is almost perfect. I have designed a support system that simulates the muscles that a real woman uses when she is pregnant. I cover the beach ball with foam padding and then 4" elastic bandages. Note: Sleeping in this form requires you to sleep on your side & to put a pillow under the stomach to prevent a major backache. Even then you will have to shift from one side to the other many times during the night. I wore the beach ball form for the first extended time during Halloween 1992 for 6 1/2 days & nights taking the form off only to bathe every other day. I started out at 8 months pregnant but after 3 days into the pregnancy I thought I stopped waddling so I increased the weight to 9 months size. I did notice an occasional waddle but not full time. I thought the form had lost it's ability to make me waddle. It wasn't until a friend commented on my waddle that I had realized that my entire body had accepted & adjusted to me being pregnant. The people who knew said the form looked & felt real. One neighbor commented on how realistic of a waddle the form made me do. I took a friend to the hospital & while we were waiting for his treatment I overheard a comment wondering why a white woman would want to carry a black mans baby. I also went out shopping & in one of the maternity shops there was a woman trying on maternity tops with one of those pillows strapped on her stomach. Although she had on a bra on top she & the store clerks went about their business as if I was really a pregnant woman. I went to a costume party & during the costume competition some friends of mine overheard people saying "ain't no way that is a man dressed as a pregnant woman.". I was impressed how easily it was to pass as a pregnant woman. I now realize that no one would think that when they see a pregnant woman that "that" was a man. Men only dress up as "hookers" right?. A pregnant CD? NEVER! At 8 months pregnant I probably could have gone for a long time. 9 months however is a whole different story. After a couple of days in the form I was looking for the time to come when I could bend over again. My second pregnancy was planned to start May 29,1993 @ 10:00 a.m. and go until June 6th at 4:00 p.m.. I planned to stay 9 months pregnant the full time. On May 29th after putting on the form & false fingernails my wife & I went out to get some clothes for us to wear during our upcoming weekend at Pajaro Dunes in Ca. The only thing we bought that fit me though was a maternity tee shirt with Garfield in a diaper on it & a logo saying "The baby says "Hi !"". We then went to dinner at Denny's where I had to squeeeeeze into one of their booths. It was so uncomfortable hat I got indigestion & couldn't finish all of my meal. We then went shopping for groceries. Walking around pregnant is hard enough on the back but when my wife started looking at cosmetics & cards the standing almost killed me. I asked her to move on only to have to stand even longer in the check out line before I was able to sit down in my Van & relax. I never thought a car's seat could feel so good. We then came back home & relaxed for the evening. On May 30th I got up, tried on my new tee shirt & started writing this letter. I felt less uncomfortable as my body was beginning to accept the form. We went shopping for some junk food & rented some video's then went home and had a junk food \ video marathon. On May 31st I got up & removed the form to take a bath and since my wife was having a very hard time with me being pregnant and since the second support system I developed didn't work I decided to end the pregnancy. On June 1st I had a minor nervous break down caused by my refusing to be pregnant. I didn't realize that this Pregnancy was that important to me so at 5:00 p.m. I placed back on the form after discussing with my wife that she should let me know when she was having problems with the outfit and why she was avoiding me. My wife is unable to get pregnant due to a doctors mistake and there-by had to avoid being around pregnant women. Since my form is so life like it gives my wife the same feelings as if she was around a real pregnant woman. That night we went to a Cross Dresser’s meeting. At the meeting everyone was curious about me being pregnant. My wife and I had a lot of fun meeting the new people who came for the first time as well as talking to old friends.
On June 2nd my wife & I rented a V.C.R. & spent the day duplicating our wedding tape. On June 3rd we went shopping & bought me a dress for the dinner party at the upcoming Pajaro Dunes weekend. I feel sorry for the GG's out there who get pregnant & have to suffer with the horrible looking clothes that is available. No wonder they think that they look ugly. After going out shopping all over for the dress we finally bought I feel that this aspect of pregnancy is not all hormonal. We then bought a pair of shorts for me to wear down there also. Then a stop at a Chinese restaurant for lunch. It was then I realized how difficult it was being pregnant & having to eat food that refuses to stay on the fork. We then returned the V.C.R. & went home. That evening I removed the form to go out & karaoke.
On June 4th I got up, put the form back on, & proceeded to get ready to leave for Pajaro Dunes and a weekend retreat with other CDer's. I had to pack 2 sets of form supports & coverings as I was going to try to swim pregnant. The drive down was nerve wracking as it was raining & there were lots of accidents. Once there, my wife & I introduced ourselves to the others. A lot of them were amazed that I came pregnant & were even more surprised when they found out I was carrying 22 lbs. of water 24 hrs. a day. We settled in and in no time felt right at home although my wife didn't like the NO SMOKING rule. The weather down there was very unsettled but there was enough sunshine to try swimming. On June 5th I dressed in my pink shorts and top, had breakfast, and went into town shopping for some food. In the check out stand my wife and I had a nice conversation with the clerk (a GG) who used to live in our area. She was wondering when the baby was due and why we were visiting the area. Upon leaving she wished the "two ladies" a nice day. A friend of ours in the next check out line overheard a child tell his parents "boy that lady is big. I bet it really hurts, huh?" His father responded "Yes I bet it does." The boy who took our groceries out to our car was also very polite and helpful.
Once back at Pajaro Dunes it
was time to put the form to it's test. With my wife's help I put on my swim suit and
climbed into the water among flashes of cameras and video taping. The bets were 1. sink
like a rock. 2. form makes little or no difference. 3. Form could be used as a new type of
personal flotation device. The water took up the weight of the form and it really felt
good having the weight off my back. So much for bet #1. As I ventured out into deeper
water I had to start moving my arms and legs to keep afloat. So much for bet #3. The only
problem I encountered was that it was harder to swim as the amount of drag increased due
to the increased size of my body. Other than that not much difference. The breast forms
did however add some buoyancy to me. After swimming for a while I got out dried off, took
a shower, and put on a new form. That night we got ready for a special dinner party. When
I went to put on a new dress I had spent 3 days running around to find I noticed they
hadn't removed the anti-theft device. Upon trying to remove the device it broke and
released dye all over the dress. Luckily I had a spare dress to wear. We never did get the
device off and being late for dinner though meant that we had to eat what was left over.
Dinner was very good any way and soon my sadness about the dress was replaced by the love
and joy that abounded there during the entire weekend. After dinner I took a long walk and
then out of consideration for my wife I went back to my room and removed the form.
Reappearing not pregnant I received some more comments. Most liked me better not pregnant;
probably because most CD's are not into simulating pregnancy and most CD's like to dress
in the short skirts and tight clothes. Maternity clothes are definitely NOT that.
On
the morning of June 6th I inflated the beach balls with air and threw them into the pool
along with another ball that some one else threw in earlier. The wind currents made them
appear as if they were playing tag. The balls then became the topic of conversation as
people noticed how well the "children" were playing together. On June 7th we got
up, some dressed in their male clothes, others still in fem., had breakfast, said our
goodbye's, and went our various ways with the memories of a great weekend and a promise in
our hearts that we would all come back again to share the love, friendships, emotions, and
the relaxed feelings that the weekend at Pajaro Dunes had given us.
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