Anti-Alcoholism

Smarts

Strong

Care

Feel

Sweat

Sea

Think

Learn

Express

Relate

Quick

Endurance

Adapt

Passion

Give

Now

Sensual

Sensuous

Go

Alcoholism

Dulls

Passes time

Self-perpetuates

Recently, I had an email conversation with my Mom about the state of the world.

Mom:

"How about the eruption in Iceland which is emitting so much ash that airports in London have to close down. Unbelievable! Another earthquake now in China. I am getting scared. I do believe that the Lord is sending us a message about our behavior."

Me:

"Yeah, could be. Or maybe our world is so interconnected that we hear about every event around the world as soon as it happens. and also, our modern society with so many people are impacted by the slightest disruption. 200 years ago, nobody cared if a solar flare erupted 'cuz there were not any radio communications to be disrupted. And no airplanes to be grounded by ash clouds or snow storms.

and there were less people on the planet. less people living in areas susceptible to catastrophe such as lowing coastlines or the slopes of volcanoes or crowded into giant cities in earthquake zones.

overall, i think our technological society is sensitive to any disruption. And we have more people to be affected. and we have instant worldwide communication about events.

maybe some of both.

Or perhaps lightning bolts will be striking people down soon."

Oops

Did it again. After several days without drinking, I enjoyed scotch on the rocks last night on an empty stomach. Well it seems to have hit me pretty quickly.
Hung over today. 2nd Saturday in a row. Bit of a headache and feeling nuaseous. Fuck me.

3 or 4

Haven't had a drink in 3 or 4 days. Feeling pretty good about it too. Been partaking in cheeba all but one of those nights. Liking it.
Now I realize how much food I eat, especially at night while watching TV. I'd like to reduce my booze consumption as I do still get hangovers occassionally and I don't need the empty calories or bloating. I am now a sloppy and fat Fuck.
If I can reduce my drinking to a decent level, then I need to work on a healthier diet.
Tonight is Friday night. Drinking tonight tho.

Broke the Streak.

So I did not drink last night. That might be the first time in nearly 2 weeks that I have not had a drink (= getting drunk).

I am excited because we got the beach house on LBI for two weeks this year. Last year was out first and we loved it. A little salt box but has everything that we need and the price is affordable. And it is in LBI, less than 2 hours easy drive away. There may be better deals in southern North Carolina but there is no way that I am driving 4 kids (ages 2 - 11) 12 hours to get there.

So two weeks feels like a long time. We are going for the last 2 weeks of Sept 2010 which was basically half price compared to last year's August trip. Hopefully it will not be as hot and the green flies will not be as bad in late Sept. The ocean stays warm thru then so we can swim.

I would love to have a family retreat for the summer, say, at the beach or in the mountains where wifey and the kids can go and spend the season. I will stay as much as possible but head in to go to work a couple of days a week. Maybe some place in Penssylvania or the Catskills on a lake. tho a mountain cottage might be hard to rent out when we are not using it. Beach houses can usually rent, at least in the summer season. Saving that cash for a down payment. At this rate, maybe we can buy something in 3 years.

1 more

Forgot to mention that we caught 1 more mouse in a forgotten trap in the
Living room. That makes 9 in total. Hopefully, that is the last of them.

Every day

Been drinking every night so far this week. Last Fri, Sat, Sun, Mon, Tues,Weds and probably tonight. Getting a little drunk but not so much or staying up so late that I can't function in the morning.

As 2 Sundays ago, I was prett shitty and had a rough Monday.

I like to drink. It feels good. It gives me something to look forward to. I am bored and feel kind of captive between work and home/family responsibilities. Drinking is something fun for me that can fit in my current lifestyle of work and stay home to watch the kids.

At this age, howeve, it is apparent that this degree of boozing is going to have physical repercussions if I continue long term.

I feel guilty drinking. I want to be a better role model for the kids. I want to find other fun things to do with my time.