Did not drink at all past 2 nights and don't feel like it tonight either. May have a beer just for fun. Tommorrow is neglect nite and that always involves some alcohol. Would like to avoid a hangover, tho.
Trying to remember that Saturday when I I realized that my drinking habits really had to change. It was January 11th. I've slowly reduced my consumption since then to a point where I don't even want it anymore that much. Now there certainly is more time in the evenings tho I still like to chill and do brainless things like TV to relax. the real challenge is to see if this leads to some other change to fill the time and energy that sobriety is giving me. Hell, my buddha is even less likely to bust my pants than before. Its still big tho, gotta work on that.
I remember thinking that going thru life slightly intoxicated was the norm and that it was ok. Seemed that I could function well enough in most situations. At times tho, I would just want to be home, be alone and drink. That happened quite often, actually. Embarrassment, shame and complete lack of confidence are all feelings that we strengthened by the alcoholism.
Now, I'm amazed that most folks go thru life sober. It seems that things are more interesting when your brain isn't a numb bowl of grape jello.
