So what am i supposed to do w/ my time. I'm used to just doing enough to get by until i can get to a time and place where i can get drunk.

what if i hadn't been adrunk over the last 10 years? What and where would i be now.

Haven't had a drink the past 3 nights. Been trying to shake a cold that came out of nowhere on Weds afternoon. I'm rediscovering life now that sobriety has blown away the fog of alcohol. Everything is so much easier. Inside i know that, unless i make a dramtic lifestyle change, this will just be another drying out period before diving back into the bottle.

Oh man! Nasty Drink Report today: Worked late yesterday and got home at 9pm. Kids in bed and wifey was in bed by 9:30pm. all tensed up from work and wanted to relax and have drinks. finished off the Dalmore scoth that wifey had bought for me over the weekend. Was probably 1/3 of the 750ml bottle. then had 2 strong vodkas w/ coke. As usual this week. started to fall asleep while sitting on the new leather couch. slept in daughter's bed as she was in ours. not the best night's sleep. woke up thirsty. feel like crap and had to have a small drink to get the nausea to dimish. gotta go. maybe more later if i can sneak the time.

Went to bed drunk the last 3 nights. No hangover but tired. Belly feels like it is going to pop. i'm getting so freakin' fat.

sister is recovering at home and tumor is non malignant.

working on the kitchen today, joy.

Been over a week since i reported here. My sister has successfully weathered her brainsuregery. Removed a cyst and a tumor from the back of her head last weds. Brought her home from Mt. Sinai Hospital in NYC yesterday. she has to take it easy for a couple of months before going back to work. Most symptoms have disappeared. Now we wait to hear if the tumor was malignant...
Was pretty hung over that wednesday going up Mt. Sinai. The pressure just makes me cave.

Been having drinks every night but ok next day. Night combo of drinking water, not drinking until sloshed and sometimes just stopping the alcohol for a couple of houtrs before bed.

We are making some major progress on the kitchen/dining room. Took out the middle wall and put a header. My father-in-law came over and i just helped. Learned some stuff. It was nice working w/ him. Lots more to do if we are to get that room(s) ready for thanksgiving. the whole clan on both my side and wifey's side will be here. same for christmas eve.