i am still thinking about my son who is now 6 years old. his older sister, the eldest child, is 11 months older at 7. We also have a toddler boy who will be 2 next month. So my concern is that the 6 year old has yet to find his place. he seems to only be into his video games and TV. that is it. he displays no other interest really except in random moments of enthusiasm. i am sure this sounds like a cliche but now it is happening to me. and yes, as you can see from the top of this entry, he is the middle child.I think he is used to having his older sister (and cousin, also a girl, that is 2 years older) lead him around and define what they are going to do, what they will play, who will do what, etc. i want to know that he is his own person.lately, he is getting very frustrated, speaks very loudly and is excessively goofy. seems to me that he has learned that this is the way to get attention from his older sister and cousin. he can't compete physically or intellectually because they are older, but he can be the class clown.perhaps he is secure in himself but i am not sure. i feel this parental, fatherly pressure to provide him w/ the guidance that he needs while he is still young enough to be molded.
perhaps i am projecting my own self insecurities onto him. i do feel pressure that i need to be role model for my kids and show them how to lead a rich and fullfilling life. trouble is, i always feel like i have yet to reach that point myself (that is an other lengthy discussion on its own). So how can I be a role model if i do not feel like i am behaving like one. to be one i would need to have more friends, do more fun things, have more interests. be closer to some imaginary perfect.