Man am I feeling like crap today. Emotional toll from my income situation and little too much wine last night are both crushing me today.

Yep, I started drinking some wine again. Stopped the ganja in January while looking for jobs. Been so bored in the eves that I figured I try alcohol again. It is OK, the buzz is nice but I like that of weed better. The drunk is too heavy and sloppy. But, I have had 2 hangovers since. While I don't drink a great deal, I guess I am just not used to it. I think last Thursday (4/9) might have been the first in 5 YEARS!! Lately, I had been thinking a lot about the social lubricant properties of alcohol and I have felt that after 1 or 2 drinks. Though, I can't stop drinking once I stop. It is a battle the entire night, simply trying to not drink as fast as possible until I go to bed. And the hangovers just suck so much. I think the costs are too high for he buzz. I simply can't manage my booze. I think I will drink again, though it will be case by case basis.