My Personal Log:
07/11/2003
My glans is super shiny and is getting smoother all the time.
The hack marks from the circ ripping the skin off of the glans is getting less and less.
The glans is really sensitive, So sensitive that it hurts if my partner rubs his tong on it.
Its fine if he rolls it around on his lips though.
There is no way I can go uncovered except for sex or stay totally naked.
Rubbing it on anything causes excruciating pain.
If I go uncovered for anymore than a few mins I start getting that drying out feeling,
even for 10-30 min after I re cover I feel the exposure.
03/07/2003 - ok time flys to dam fast k....
It is getting so sensitive that even if a towel rubs aginest my head it is really unconfortable.
Today I had my first experence peeing while I was covered. OMG. Everytime I Think I have
experenced all the feelings of being natural as nature intended it I get a new experence.
scyclolgy I am still healing a great deal. Every day a Heal a little more and it seem the
more I can't do to help stop circ I heal just that much more or that much faster I can't tell wich.
02/17/2003 - The glans is going to be a shiny one. hooray. I know that some peoples
are shiny and other are a mat finish. the more mine is De-keratinizing the smoother and shinier
it's getting. That tells me that it is a genetic thing.
02/16/2003 - I have been working hard on visilation and pictureing myself intact
I beleve my mind is starting/trying to untangle the signels from all the crushed
nerve endings. It seems to be helping a great deal.
02/01/2003 - I am now keeping it covered 23 hrs a day. I always keep it covered
except to take a shower or have sex. I am tugging 8-12 hr a day 5 days a week I have been taking
2 days in a row off. I think that is very important. because I don't seem to feel much the first
day but always feel that itch feeling that is telling me thats its growing. At night I am wearing
a baby sock I simply pull the foreskin over my glans and flip the sock over it. during the days
that I am not wearing my PUD I am using an o-ring. At some point I will try and use an o-ring at
night. right know its a little to tight when I get a nocturnal erection.
01/11/2003 - I have noticed a hugh confidence improvement. I have always been
scared of my own shadow and really lacked confidence. I am now starting to figure out why
my whole life I have been weak and sort of a follower. I also have started seeing the weakness
in others and I know they have been hurt (circed) the same as I was.
12/26/2002 - 6 weeks after my hernia surgery I started to use my PUD again. It
seems that 6 weeks was how long it took for me to be ready to try it. I
am not going for full days yet, maybe just a few hours a day to start.
For the last 4 weeks I have been manual tugging 15 min in the morning
and wearing an 0-ring during the day. Each time I used the restroom I
was giving it a good tug and then re applying the o-ring. I think I am
going to continue my manual tugging in the morning and sometimes in the
evening. and use the o-rings on my days off.
11/01/2002 - Had to stop restoring because of an hernia. I got the hernia from
working in the yard not from restoring. I have sergery 11/14/2002.
10/08/2002 - I produced smegma for the first time in my life today. after my first
full night of coverage and I did not take it off at noon to work out. so it stayed on all day.
about 4:30 I removed my PUD and there it was smegma. and a pretty strong sent that I had not
experienced before.
10/07/2002 - I went and got some silk boxers and wore them for the first time
while wearing my PUD. What a difference. I did not get the soreness and the rubbing that I was
getting even with soft cotton. I would highly recommend that people restoring use silk boxers.
I have been needing to get something for night coverage. I had heard from someone on the restore
list to use socks for a newborn so I picked up some infant socks the age on the socks is 0-4 mo.
You can pull your skin forward and turn the sock inside out over your fingers, pull your foreskin
over the glans and plop the sock on, then pull down the sides. Well it worked amazingly well
When I woke up it was still on and from night erections the skin only pulled away from the glans
slightly.
09/21/2002 - I have noticed the frenulum starting to grow back.
A very small web of skin starting to grow on the underside of my dick. When It gets a little
bigger I was take a pic and add it to my pics.
09/20/2002 - In addition to restoring I am working on a little DNA re programming.
I am into holistic healing and I know that every cell in my body is replaced every few years.
that means that my body has to know how to re build itself. through mediating and visialations
I am going to include my foreskin into my body.
Here is what I am doing. I am reprogramming every single memory I have with that same memory of me
except I am intact. Every time a memory of me comes up, I picture my dick as intact. Once all my memory's
are reprogrammed the DNA should start producing a real foreskin just as it thinks it has my whole life.
In addition I am finding this to be very healing for the "hurt" of circ.
09/05/2002 - The De-keratinization of my glans has started. It is starting to peel off
like dry skin. I am amazed !! Currently it is so sensitive that I have to keep it covered while I
am dressed because any rubbing aginst my boxers is very painful. I have found I can wear tight
underwear and it does not rub too bad yet. I have a feeling at some point even the air will be too much.
08/01/2002 - I started using the PUD again !! I am so happy about it. I
just want to be restored!!
06/01/2002 - I have to take 2 months off because we just adopted an 8yr old boy
and I am staying home with him for the summer. I did not want him to see this big thing in my pants
plus we are going to the beach, swimming and playing around. I just can't wear it.
04/01/2002 - I found allorings.com
and started using silicone o-rings to keep my foreskin forward.
They are great and easy to order and fast. On the dash numbers the first number after the dash is the
width (thickness) of the ring and the second part is how big around it is. I started with the
2-118 but they are a little too big but I like how thin they are they don't get scraped off easy.
next I ordered the 2-315, 2-314, 2-313, 2-312 Those are about the right sizes for me.
These sizes are 13/16 , 3/4 , 11/16 , 5/8 respectfully. the (3) = 3/16 thick are pretty thick
but they don't stretch as the thinner ones did. I may try the (2) = 1/8 2-211 , 2-210 , 2-209 , 2-208
notice they are the same size around 13/16 , 3/4 , 11/16 , 5/8. If you change thickness
don't just go by the number make sure you look at the chart so you get the same size around.
Here is the chart sizing page: sizing chart
03/15/2002 - by this time I had found a web site called norm.org They have a restore group
where you can talk with people that are restoring This web site got me the information I needed
to make a decision on what type of restore device would be best for me. I decided on the PUD.
03/01/2002 - A friend told me that people can restore their foreskin by taping
some sort of weight to the end of your dick. That was where it started. I always knew from
the time that I started jacking off that something was wrong because it would hurt to jerk off.
I could not figure out why something that felt so good hurt so much. I had never seen a dick with
foreskin so I had no idea I was not natural. I did know something was wrong. The first time I saw
someone with foreskin I was really curious about it.
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