My readers inspire me to write about lessons I have learned through therapy and life experience. For instance, do you wonder whether you should tell people that you are dissociative? Check out my guidelines for disclosure.
Sometimes it seems like yesterday that my worlds collided and sometimes it seems like an eternity. It was 1991, but seemed like 1971. The Beginning was the day I really found out something was wrong and I needed help.Through writing I had a huge break through with internal communication with Myself. Do you have conversations within? Maybe they sound like one of mine. Read one of the Conversations Within that I had. Can you relate? My online Journal, when I keep it up, allows me to write about my daily ups and downs.
When I wrote Multiple Layers of One's self, I was attempting to describe how our system worked and how we dealt with every day events. When I was recently in the hospital I learned how feelings, thoughts and behaviors worked. Basically, each of the members have their own coping mechanisms created to deal with certain events: They were called upon to use their fine tuned skill. Take the extreme feeling of happiness, for instance. Even that is a fine tuned skill. There was a particular member who "got" to experience happiness. This was walled off from sadness. When you taint happiness with sadness, confusion tends to set in, and one doesn't understand how to deal with it. For us--at that moment--we went with it, then filed the happiness in one area and sadness in another. Now, because filing feelings into separate compartments doesn't work, we have to understand each individually and then together.
I am only beginning to share parts of Myself with my readers. These pages describe coping skills, good memories and growth. We do not describe abuse or painful experiences. Meet ~ Hanna and Emily ~ and read about some of the Safe Places we have created to stay grounded. In "Making it Right" and "New Perspective" we write about childhood memories we had to untangle from the rest of the mess.