States

a series of transitions through various states

more questions than answers

lyrics:

As It Seems [intro] [verse] how can you see intuition? how can you free inhibition? [transitional] [verse] why would you go to the ocean? why would you know the devotion? [transitional] [chorus] you never notice that i'm never happy i'm only wishing to see what it means i'm only seeking and asking a question why is reality not as it seems? [verse] planes in the sky flying upwards how can you see intuition? leaves on the trees turning colors how can you free inhibition? why would you know the devotion? cars on the road driving somewhere why would you go to the ocean? folks in their lives going nowhere [chorus] you never notice that i'm never happy i'm only wishing to see what it means i'm only seeking and asking a question why is reality not as it seems? [verse] cats on the streets hunting rodents trains in the night sounding distant we're living lives in the moments lives crashing down in an instant [verse breakdown] thoughts in your head dancing freely dreams leaning hard on your talents friends in your life never really love in your heart's in the balance [final chorus] you never notice that i'm never happy i'm only wishing to see what it means i'm only seeking and asking a question why is reality not as it seems? (c) 2009 Bill Grundmann

imagine a video of people skydiving

lyrics:

The Fade Away why would i go? why would i go? why would i go? why would i go? hold me in your arms and tell me why hold me in your arms gettin by the reasons why gettin by only in the waking dream of more only in the day tell me why you goin out the door tell me why why would i go? why would i go? why would i go? why would i go? falling through the sky into the clouds falling through the sky asking why we are the way we are asking why and we always say we're gonna go and we always stay tell me why you goin out the door tell me why why can't i see you cry? why can't we reach the sky? why do we dance this way? why do the fade away? (c) 2009 Bill Grundmann

dual tracked poetry set to techno - go figure

lyrics:

Abandoned there's an abandoned car i'm sure it's abandoned it didn't used to be there and now there it is every day it's parked on the side of the road and the place where it's parked is very strange (i think my favorite concept) (and metaphor is water) it's not in front of a house (water) it's sort of in between two houses (it can refer to the ocean) it's a sort of a no man's land (it can refer to rivers flowing down into the ocean) i can imagine everybody thinks: oh, well that car is somebody else's car (it can refer to precipitation falling down on the mountain) but, it's been there two months now (into streams) first it was covered with leaves (water is interesting) and then on Hallowe'en someone threw an egg at it (water has an interesting sound) and now there's a layer of snow on top (water flows) clearly whoever owns this car hasn't been here in a while (water seems to be a living thing) and yet every day as i drive by there it is (even though, really, fundamentally, it is not) abandoned (water is my favorite metaphor) at least *i* think so abandoned (water is my favorite metaphor) (c) 2008 Bill Grundmann

never ever gonna

lyrics:

never gonna never will account for what you do never gonna know what's wrong or right never gonna know a peaceful world never gonna know a sober night never gonna feed your kids enough never gonna see the Milky Way never gonna dream another dream never will account for what you say you're writing checks that always bounce you scrimp and save and what does it mean? you haven't slept at all tonight you always got a brand new scheme you're pulling back from all your friends you go to work you come back home you're tellin me that you're OK you're always weary down to the bone never will account for what you do never gonna hold her in your arms never gonna know a peaceful world never gonna own a fancy car never gonna feed your kids enough never gonna reach that golden ring never gonna dream another dream never will amount to anything you're writing checks that always bounce you're always lookin behind your back you haven't slept at all tonight you never seem to get the knack you're pulling back from all your friends you pop that can and drink it down you're tellin me that you're OK you know someday you're gonna drown never gonna never gonna never gonna (c) 2008 Bill Grundmann

i don't

you put a musician in a room full of beeping things... ~~~~~~~~ sound effects used in this song: 20090102.street.noise.wav (http://www.freesound.org/samplesViewSingle.php?id=65929) By dobroide (http://www.freesound.org/usersViewSingle.php?id=8043)

lyrics:

I See You (i) try to hold -- this moment the essence -- of being me i know -- your present i sense -- the ever-branching tree (i) fly free -- at the speed of light raise me -- through a tunnel filled with my life (i) float away -- through the ceiling someday -- you'll understand try to hold -- this feeling i know -- you hold my hand i c u i <3 u (c)2009 Bill Grundmann

Away, I'm bound away...

give it up

lyrics:

Goin' Away we can't ever stay goin' away goin' away why would i wanna say boo goin' to the limits with a fren like you? how can a lover stay true? in a world full of sex and the hullabaloo? tell me a reason for why we shouldn't give it up and always stay high? i never thought it all through livin' in box with a you know who we can't ever stay goin' away goin' away (c) 2009 Bill Grundmann

For the MacJams Reunion Fest 2006, I did a remix and remaster of the first tune I posted here. or anywhere for that matter. http://macjams.com/song/21682

lyrics:

Cerebral Core Test every time i think i know you -- you have changed every way i think i know that i am the same every way you think you know me -- i have changed every time you think you know that you are the same so you think you know i know you know i know what you're thinkin' but it's only a mirage, an illusion and you dream a dream, i dream it too you know, that we're dreamin' it's just your cerebral cortex in recursion every atom in our bodies has a certain place every atom in our bodies will be replaced ... so you think you know i know you know i know what you're thinkin' but it's only a mirage, an illusion every body on our planet has a certain place every body on our planet will be replaced ... every time i think i know you -- you have changed every way i think i know that i am the same every way you think you know me -- i have changed every time you think you know that you are the same .... so you think you know i know you know i know what you're thinkin' but it's only a mirage, an illusion and you dream a dream, i dream it too you know, that we're dreamin' it's just your cerebral cortex in recursion

This is an afterture for the "States" album. the early inquiries of youth the pain and the instability of relationships the appreciation of the large and the small the growing feeling of hopelessness the denial and rejection of reality the final crisis of the body the ceremony of goodbyes and dust the last lingering words of the dead the comforting knowledge that it's all in the mind the fast forward button