Happy 1st Birthday Jenna
our heavenly angel
It’s amazing to me that it’s already been a year since you passed through our lives, Jenna. Almost a year since I held you. I miss you so much - every single day. If you had lived, we would be having a party with balloons, cake and presents. I’m sure you would’ve been just as cute as your big sister Maria was at that age…maybe you would’ve been just as shy or maybe you would be a chatter box. All those unanswered questions – things we’ll never know. I’ll never be able to hear your first cry, see your first smile, hear you say mommy or daddy for the first time…right about now you’d be taking your first steps, oh how I long to see that. Then I think about down the road – how it will always be that way - I won’t see your first ride on a bike, first day of school, your wedding day, your babies and so many other things in between. There will always be an empty seat at our table. There will always be an empty space in every celebration and hard time we face as a family.
Yet, I feel so blessed to have had those 6 days with you. You taught me so many lessons – lessons about what’s important in life – lessons about the kind of person I am and the kind of person I want to be. You’ve made me even more aware of how much I love being a mom. Your strength is something that will forever amaze and inspire me. I remember so fondly, how when I was in your presence, I felt I could get through anything – I could do anything. I also remember how in the scariest, hardest, most uncertain time of my life, you gave me peace.
I’m sure your celebration in heaven today will be miraculous – I’m sure you are up there in the arms of Jesus and our family that have gone before us and I bet that your great grandpa’s are all fighting over who gets to hold you next because they all want to make you giggle and I’m sure your great grandma’s are telling them to stop it, not to “spoil” YOUR day. I know that you have other angels celebrating with you – baby Kale, Austin and Issac - are right there with you, keeping you company until I can be with you again.
I miss you every day. I miss holding you, comforting you, learning about who you are, watching your big sister sing to you. I talk to you often. You’re always a part of everything that I do – in my thoughts and in my heart. I pray that you know how very much you are loved and missed.
Happy first birthday baby!
I love you!
Love,
Mommy
My sweet baby girl, Jenna,
I remember the first time I saw you and how beautiful you were. I couldn't beleive that you would only be with me a few short days. I still stop now and then and think of the sounds you made - the smell of your breath. It hurts me to think that it's been a full year...
I'm going to miss you eating your birthday cake. I can see your face covered in icing. I'll miss seeing you go to school, riding your bike, going on your first date, going to prom. I will never be able to go fishing with you or take you sledding in the winter. So many things I will miss.
Jenna, I want you to know that you gave me the most wonderful six days of my life and you made me so proud to be your daddy.
Love,
Daddy
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