Wonder           6/17/2002

 

 

I wonder

I wonder about many things

I wonder what it takes to

            Eat the brains of some animal

I wonder what it takes to

            Be with a man

I wonder what it takes to

            Be human and to actually

                        Like it

I wonder

I wonder why I am the way that I am.

 

I wonder why I like to drink…

            But hate to hang over.

 

I wonder why I hate my job

            But I wonder why I love computers

                        And programming

 

I wonder why I am who I say I am

 

I wonder why you are

            Who

            You

            Say

            You are.

 

I like to write the poem…

 

I like to write the essay….

 

I like to write, and write, and write…

 

Until it pisses someone off.

 

I wonder,

 

I wonder why I am who I am and why you are

            Who you are….

 

I wonder why I

            No longer play the guitar

 

I wonder why

            I no longer play

            Tennis…

 

I wonder why

            I have little imagination left

 

I wonder why

            I got married and why

                        I want children.

 

I wonder why

            I’ve taken to drawing scribbles in notebooks

            In sketch books

            In my tiny head

 

I wonder why

            There are so many stars

                        In a galaxy

 

I wonder…

            How many of those stars

                        Have planets

 

I wonder…

            How many of those planets

                        Have life

 

I wonder why I wonder so much

 

And I wonder why I decide

            To drink whiskey

            And rum

            On a school night.