Anniversary

Ooh you make me live
Whatever this world can give to me
It's you you're all I see
Ooo you make me live now honey

Ooh you're the best friend that I ever had
I've been with you such a long time
You're my sunshine and I want you to know
That my feelings are true
I really love you
Oh you're my best friend

I've been wandering round
But I still come back to you
In rain or shine
You've stood by me
I'm happy at home
You're my best friend

Ooo you make me live
Whenever this world is cruel to me
I got you to help me forgive
Ooo you make me live now honey
Ooo you make me live

You're the first one
When things turn out bad
You know I'll never be lonely
You're my only one
And I love the things
I really love the things that you do
You're my best friend

A year seems long when you say it, but it isn't. I've known Bridget and Diana for five years and still don't know everything about them. This year with Max has been an exciting one filled with knew things and emotions. I feel very different that I was last year, and Max and I are much closer of course...

All I really have to say is I'm so very happy. Yeah, things don't last forever. High school relationships tend to end. But I really don't care, so long as I can always remember the way it feels to kiss him and feel his warm hands on my stomache or his arms around my waist. Laughing at stupid things.. sharing secrets. Love for the first time, our first year together.. thanks Max.

Can you find us homes???

I'm so sad! Today I learned that a bunch of animals from the summer camps are still at the Oregon Humane Society! This sweet dog Buddy is still waiting for someone to adopt him! Apparently he was adopted but then returned because he was "too bouncy." Poor Buddy.. maybe someone you know would like him? He's been there over four months!

And there's also Lizzy...



And Lily, who's been there 8 months!



and my parrot lover Ted..



and cute little Robert..



Maybe you or someone you know would like a pet? Check them out (and other animals) at the Oregon Humane Society!

Yoga Therapy on a Monday

It's so hard to get up on Mondays. Crane (fell down), half moon, up dog, down dog child, cobra, bow, bharadvajaand twist (the best for mornings), revolved triangle, and a failed attempt at the "one-legged king pigeon" (ouch!). This was going to be an interesting day.

I started doing a little bit of yoga sophomore year after we did some in drama. This year I’ve been doing it most mornings and a little bit at night if I’m stiff or stressed. My routine is pretty simple as my flexibility is very limited at the moment; I’m getting better at it though!


For some reason I felt confused and restless after school today so I did some more yoga, baked an apple crisp, and created a strange coffee drink which I first name “Double Dutch Chocolate Double Shot Espresso with whipped cream” but have hence shortened it to “That weird mocha thing.” It isn’t very good and caffeine wasn’t the best idea with my present mood.


I guess people really do get to me more than I’ll admit. Tonight I reflected on a lot of things before going to youth group. Then, upon listening to my favorite new song (“Leaving New York” by R.E.M.)...

“You might have laughed if I told you
You might have hidden a frown
You might have succeeded in changing me
I might have been turned around...”

...I decided to write a letter to the girl mentioned in the previous post. Was it the best idea to tell her how I felt? I think so. I just didn’t feel good being mad at someone who didn’t even know it.

Camel, tree, mountain, hero, loctus... calm :)

Trust?

I was very angry today; a true feeling of pure anger that I’ve only felt a few times, maybe three that I can remember. My vision blurred, I felt tense all over.. Like somewhat had just punched me in the stomach. I’m amazed I didn’t do something stupid like punch her little.. *grumble grumble* face. Good thing I didn’t... but if I did Bridget probably would have stopped me : )

Love, compassion, responsibility, respect... you need those for friendship or, in the very least, you need a bit of each to form working relations with anyone in the world. However, in my very humble opinion, the only way you can ever hope to have an open relationship with someone (friends, parents, brothers, boyfriends, girlfriends, kittens) is with trust.

A funny thing that trust, but it’s got to be important if it could cause such anger in an otherwise easy going, strangely unconcerned-with-other's-opinions girl such as myself. It makes me sad.

Oh well! I already know it’s her strange psychological problems that are the cause of it and not any actions of mine (unless, of course, I have given her reason to stop trusting me with a past situation I do not recall). Either way, one who claims to be so understanding should stop once in a while, listen to the person, and perhaps question if they might be wrong (Me wrong? Impossible!).

I feel guilty writing this. Why should I? It's my personal journal... *sigh*

On a somewhat but not really and I didn’t say it was somewhat related note: I was thinking about canceling my nerd party. I don’t know... I think it would be fun but I don’t want her.. I mean, well.. that’s bad.. isn’t it?

So no cancelling.






Er...

Long Week

Don't feel you need to read this, it's just that last week was so busy I need to reflect everything that happened...

Monday:
1. Bridget: “I have a boyfriend..”
Sara: (David Richardson?) “Yeah??”
Bridget: “It’s Bryan Coover.”
Sara: o.0 Waaaaaaa? (How did that happen?!)

2. Layout- Peter takes up Caitlin’s and my computer for 90 minuets, then eats about half the pizza.

3. Orchestra concert

4. Helping the orchestra people clean up after the concert, helping Andy

5. Finishing my giant Expedition project and journal for Jarmir all night.


Tuesday:
1. Freaked out about my scene work, only to find I didn’t have to turn it in anyway.

2. Was innocently skipping American Lit when David came into the library and pushed me deep into the pool of Bryan-Bridget-David situation. Managed to swim to the edge and escape for lunch. Bomb threat.

3. Tired

4. Layout: Max and I last ones to leave


Wednesday:
1. Ate too many Egos, felt nauseous all period. Skipped psychology; Max stayed with me and made me feel better :)

2. Bridget skips German and History.. I sit quietly and play with my little marble and Play Mobil man.

3. Confirmation class enters a new low

4. Really cool eclipse

Thursday:
1. Field trip: King Leer by Portland Center Stage. The bus was 45 minuets late so we had to eat the free “poor kid” lunch provided by the school, except we had to pay $3.00 for it.

2. Bridget spends the whole time with Bryan; David talks about Bridget and Bryan, I talk about how much I love kissing Max.

3. My contact gets messed up during the second act, leaving me mostly blind. Bridget, David, and Bryan disappear and I run blindly around the block looking for the bus, convinced I’ll miss it and get stuck in Portland.

4. Didn’t miss the bus. David talks about Bridget while I listen with squinted eyes.

5. Walk home in the rain.

6. Diana appears. We do homework together, study, eat dinner, make a movie, and then carve pumpkins. Good times.


Friday:
1. School canceled due to bomb threat.

2. Go out to coffee with B and D; they talk about how everyone’s relationship (except for mine) is falling apart. Good conversation until I get disturbed by a new piece of information.

3. Investigate school scene with Agent Parmer.

4. Max and I enjoy an afternoon downtown.

5. I help set up the church haunted house for 6 hours.


Saturday:
1. Haunted house waste of time, work, effort, and sanity.

2. Clean up haunted house.

4. Go to Russell’s party, dance until my stomach hurts too much.


Sunday:
1. Force myself out of bed early to clean.

2. College fair with Diana, Max, and Andy. Not in the best of moods until Max and I chill for a while on a couch.

3. Party. People I didn’t remember inviting showed up. I’m glad it ended at 11:30. Bryan-David-Bridget situation makes everyone very confused. Zombie movie scares me.