She is in my arms… but it’s not like it was before she dies.  She reeks of dirt from her own grave.  She wants me to follow her into death, but what can I do?  She deserves peace.  It’s the least I can give her for all her pain.

   Let me fall
   Let me climb

She wants me to give up my life for her.

   There’s a moment when fear and dream must collide 

How can I?  I’m only beginning to understand who I am.  I no longer resent those new moons when I turn human.

   Someone I am 
   Is waiting for courage

All because of Kagome…  She and Kikyou are a part of each other… and yet Kagome encourages me to live.

   The one I want
   The one I will become
   Will catch me

But Kikyou needs me to die in order for her soul to rest.

   So let me fall
   If I must fall

How can I choose between then?  How can I please both?
   I won’t heed your warnings
   I won’t hear them 

I step back from Kikyou’s embrace.  She looks sad.  I can feel someone else watching.  I know, without looking, who it is.  I stare at her in silence.

   All I ask

I wish I could tell her not to worry.

   All I need

But the pain in her eyes silences me.

   Let me open whichever door I might open

Please understand, Kagome.  I need both of you.

   Let me fall
   If I fall

I have to try everything in my power to make you both whole.

   Though the phoenix may or may not rise

I leave Kikyou in the clearing where I found her and head towards my favorite thinking tree.

   I will dance so freely

It helps me clear my mind from all the confusion.

   Holding on to no one

Kagome follows me at a distance and I am secretly pleased that she hasn’t run away.

   You can hold me only

I turn to her and she stops to stare at me.  Tears run down her cheeks.  I’m sorry I cause so much pain.

   If you too will fall
   Away from all these
   Useless fears and chains

I walk towards her and throw my arms around her shoulders, pulling her to me.  Please don’t cry.

   Someone I am
   Is waiting for my courage

I hate to see her cry.  She has such a fierce spirit.  Her strength is what keeps me going.

   The one I want
   The one I will become

I hold her close.

   Will catch me

Her scent makes me dizzy with longing.  I want the happiness she brings me, now and forever.

   So let me fall
   If I must fall

If only…

   I won’t heed your warnings
   I won’t hear 

She holds me close and I feel hope in my aching flesh.  Maybe all isn’t lost.

   Let me fall
   If I fall

I gently kiss the top of her head, wishing for more.

   There’s no reason
   To miss this one chance

She smiles up at me through her tears.

   This perfect moment

I lean forward and brush my lips to hers.

   Just let me fall

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