So many times I have stood before you
Silent - unable to speak
unable to tell you what I am feeling
To express what’s in my heart
Yet my heart is crying out
But I don’t know if you hear it
I’ve never been good with words
No matter how hard I try
As much as I want to
those few words go unsaid

I remember our first encounter
The bar in Canada
Familiar territory for me
A new scene for you
My rage at fever pitch
Seeking pain to forget my pain
Again the king of the cage
Not what I wanted
So off I go drownin’ my sorrows

Then, you approached me
Offering a gentle hand
A shoulder to lean on
You listened to my story
The sad tale of Alkali Lake
Of the redhead doctor
She gave her life
Left me crushed and shattered
My love I could never share
Because she made a choice

You gave warmth and compassion
Sensitivity to my feelings
You held my hand with tenderness
Then sat by my side
Let the Wolverine sob softly
Shedding tears of sadness
Through your kindness
There was a transfer of strength
You encouraged me to carry on

But, we parted ways
Was Fate on my side?
Our paths crossed again
A rescue mission
I would save you from the man
Who claimed to love you
But hated what you are
a mutant with keen animal senses
and speedy healing ability

I protected you strongly
as only a good guy could
Knowing the tortures you would endure
No way in hell would I allow it
No way in hell would he claim you
With claws unsheathed
And a feral growl
Back away, bub
She’s here with me

I held you close as you clutched tightly
Embraced with my protection
Your fingers gripping the leather
My feelings in a tailspin
my heart began to pound
my pulse began to race
It was then that I truly knew
You were all I could ever need
You were all I could ever want
But the words failed to be said

Time after time we stood alone
do you sense my agitation?
Do you sense my attraction?
the passion, the wanting, the needing
What I wouldn’t do to hold you close
To have you near my heart
But I keep burying my feelings inside
If only I could say those words
Those words you deserve to hear

It pains me to see you with others
For I wish they were me
I want to be your good guy
To have you be my girl
But I shy away in denial
Yet, I feel the jealousy
A berserker rage of wanting
Wanting what can be mine
To take you by my side
But my love for you hides

Do you know what you do to me?
Do you know how I want you?
It’s a war with myself
When I see you with other men
My jealousy is unknown
My claws ready to strike
I rage on in silence
With pain of not having you
A desire to end the loneliness

My heart pounds with desire
I know you must hear it
Your senses are strong like mine
Keen like the animals we are
Yet, something stops me
For I can’t move
frozen like a statue
My feelings at the surface
But I shy away again
the words fail to be said

How is it that I can be
Strong of body
but weak for you?
These feelings I so deeply fear
I don’t want you to turn away
rejection stings way too much
Are you ignoring my attempts?
Do you even care?
I wish I could make you mine
Damn me, why do I hide in fear?        

You leave me in a trance
Intoxicated beyond belief
Your scent surrounds me
A soft sweetness in the air
You are like a drug
A drug I am addicted to
Unmatched sensations
An incredible high
These feelings overwhelm me
Why can’t I say the words?

Stupefied by my stupidity
Crazed with desire
I need you, I want you
But I fear you
Have I lost control?
My instincts say one thing
My heart says another
I battle with myself
Which side is to win?
If only I knew the answer

I look at myself in the mirror
The questions come to mind
Why am I so afraid?
Why can’t I be brave?
I’m feral and strong
With alloy claws
The mighty Wolverine
But Wolverine’s heart aches
Wishing for love all his own
Why, oh why, can’t I say the words?

Do you know how you make me feel?
What hidden power do you contain?
Does Panther know she tamed the Wolverine?
I can only wonder
The loner and the survivor
Wants more out of life
How is it I stand before you
These things fill my heart with fright
A few simple words could change it all
But they are words I fail to say

Are you my soul mate?
My instincts tell me yes
I so need you by my side
I so need you in my heart
I need you to fill the emptiness
Take away this loneliness
To make my world complete
Make this broken man whole
For I am not all animal
But I fail to speak

Why do I stop the words from being said?
such a simple phrase to utter
you always break down my defenses
you always find a way inside
but this wall is so strong
that even I am not sure
Just how to tear it down
I’m afraid to open my heart
I’m afraid to say the words
So afraid to tell you how much I love you